The question from the previous post might have tread the toes of some christian, provoked their faith and if that is so, I should think that is a good thing. I believe for many christians the question might have - I hope it has- instigated them to rethink the very basis of their faith, why they came to accept Jesus Christ as their lord god saviour.

As I gave the question some thought, it has allowed me to remember my faith struggle and journey to accepting Jesus Christ as my lord god saviour. Born into a christian family, I was never deprive of any gospel teachings from young, but accepting god was another issue. The teachings were interesting and made perfect sense to me, however I could never really come to comprehend how god existed in my life. Being young, innocent and accepting of everything thrown in your direction, I never really bothered to question my faith. However, the struggles for my purpose of being a christian, coming to church services etc became more imminent in my teenage years.

As the struggles grew, my relationship with god was rather erratic. But thankfully, over the years, with the care of the church and much reflection, god steadied my silent internal faith struggle. I will not elaborate my life story here, but what I come to observe it that many things in my life I realise just isn't a matter of coincidence. It is not a matter of chance that he has moulded and continuing to do so to make me what I am today.

Faith is a wonderful thing, it's believing something you cannot see it, touch it or you know anything tangible. Through my life experience, although they may not be of anything spectacular, the blessing and struggles have reaffirmed my faith. It is an experience over a period of time, hence, it's not surprising that often people do not accept christ on the spot during street evangelism but I hope they do not come to reject christ.

I suppose when many people first come to know god, it is some what like a barter trade, if god can give me this, this and that then I will believe him. I must say maybe it is indeed somewhat like a barter trade. When i accepted God, as shared in my reflection, God has acted as a guide in my life, bringing me tremendous blessing in times of happiness and in times of struggles.

Despite all these blessing, should our faith be build upon such a "barter trade"? Perhaps we can achieve just as much or even much more without god in our life, but on what basis do you use to measure your achievements or success? Maybe we can have a happy fulfilled life as many non-christians already have but is believing in christ all about hoping to get something in return? God will bless us in his own way and own time for sure. However what I have come to conclude is that when I realise that there is indeed god in my life, we should ignore whatever is in this initial barter trade deal because there is no reason for me reject him for he is god. Simply God.